May 26, 2009
i don't want to live in regrets.
i may seem to be someone who can always take things so easily.okay with anything.easy going.always happy.
but i am not.
i used to take things very lightly.even if it is something that give me negative feelings, i will just hide it aside and eventually i will forget about it.
but now,i start to feel that it is already the last lapse of my life being a teenager, it is time to plan my future properly.
"small investments that bring in big returns."
i got into UOL Banking and Finance.months ago,i had already expected it.weeks ago,i was still okay with it.but now,it doesn't seem to be that way.
i can't breathe.the pressure is pressing far too hard on me.
it is again the topic on admission to university.
i was thinking of retaking my a level again.and pursue my dream once again.
"will it be the same results again?"
i have no confidence.
i have come so far.not me alone.but together with all my besties and teachers.
with all the practices and the encouragements we used to give each other.
i am afraid that i will not be able to step onto the a level path again.myself and alone.
should i just do with what i am given with now?
but i know.i will definitely regret one day.
that is not what i am always aiming on.
hope i wish.there is someone there to give me the right answer to my life.
but i know.
that is my life.
i choose the way i live.
i choose the path i take.
i choose the future that i want to have.
live with what i have now.
graduate in 2012.when i am 22.
give it a try.
retake a level in 2010.get my a level results in 2011.graduate in 2014.when i am 24.
2years of youth.
to be exchanged with the regrets.
2years of youth.
it is not too much.
guys spend 2years in army.
a friend of mine spend 6years to graduate from secondary school.
from normal stream to express stream.just for something he always wants.
now he is doing what he loves in poly.
do i even have the courage to be like him?
restart it all over again.
even if i am going to retake my a level again.
this journey will not be easier.but even harder.
i will be doing my UOL cert together with a level.
double studies.double amount of work.double of efforts put in.
can i live the life that i want?
i may seem to be someone who can always take things so easily.okay with anything.easy going.always happy.
but i am not.
i used to take things very lightly.even if it is something that give me negative feelings, i will just hide it aside and eventually i will forget about it.
but now,i start to feel that it is already the last lapse of my life being a teenager, it is time to plan my future properly.
"small investments that bring in big returns."
i got into UOL Banking and Finance.months ago,i had already expected it.weeks ago,i was still okay with it.but now,it doesn't seem to be that way.
i can't breathe.the pressure is pressing far too hard on me.
it is again the topic on admission to university.
i was thinking of retaking my a level again.and pursue my dream once again.
"will it be the same results again?"
i have no confidence.
i have come so far.not me alone.but together with all my besties and teachers.
with all the practices and the encouragements we used to give each other.
i am afraid that i will not be able to step onto the a level path again.myself and alone.
should i just do with what i am given with now?
but i know.i will definitely regret one day.
that is not what i am always aiming on.
hope i wish.there is someone there to give me the right answer to my life.
but i know.
that is my life.
i choose the way i live.
i choose the path i take.
i choose the future that i want to have.
live with what i have now.
graduate in 2012.when i am 22.
give it a try.
retake a level in 2010.get my a level results in 2011.graduate in 2014.when i am 24.
2years of youth.
to be exchanged with the regrets.
2years of youth.
it is not too much.
guys spend 2years in army.
a friend of mine spend 6years to graduate from secondary school.
from normal stream to express stream.just for something he always wants.
now he is doing what he loves in poly.
do i even have the courage to be like him?
restart it all over again.
even if i am going to retake my a level again.
this journey will not be easier.but even harder.
i will be doing my UOL cert together with a level.
double studies.double amount of work.double of efforts put in.
can i live the life that i want?
when we are together,
10:38 PM.
10:38 PM.
