August 28, 2008
i just need some silent moments for myself.
lots of things happened these few days.
okay.first,prom night.i have decided not to go.something happened.i have to pay all the expenses for prom all by myself.i feel ashamed to get the money from my parents.i am soon to be a 18years old girl,earning income as a tutor,i see no reason to get money from them.they need the money for some other stuffs too.even thuogh $85 is not ALOT,my classmates did offered to lend it to me first(they are seriously a nice group of people),but i always feel that it's not right to borrow money from others.and as the first daughter,i am obliged to lighten the burden of my parents.so i have decided not to go.
(to char,leah and minshan: thanks for understanding my situation and agree to not to for prom too.i am really sorry.because of me,you all decided to go.and because of me again,you girls didn't have the chance to go.i am sorry.)
(to the class 07s07: i am sorry.i was so enthu at first and persuaded stef they all to go.in the end,they had decided to go.but now,i back out.sorry.the previous time,you guys didn't wanted to go and after all the persuasion,thinking that it's a class thing,that's why you guys go.but now... i am really sorry.i feel bad.because of me,i took away everyone's hope to prom.i feel guilty.i know you all are already being understanding to lend me money,so that i can go for prom.but i hope you guys understand that prom does not only consist of the $85.you have to dress up and stuffs like this.i really can't afford it now.and i can't probably borrow all the money from you guys.thanks for the nice intention.)
and the $85 is far too ex for food like spring rolls,jasmine tea,honeydew sago and roasted chicken etc.we can have it outside at a much lower price.we get the super nice room (grand ballroom),but some kopitiam food?and why didn't we have the chance to choose our choice of hotel this year?last year,the seniors got to choose and they went to swissotel,had Daniel Ong as their DJ and they paid &85 too.now,we pay $85 too.but hilton hotel???so which superstar DJ are we going to have?it's not that i am finding fault on the 9th council.but things just don't seem logical.and during the previous assembly,they did mentioned that the first payment is this week and the second payment will be after our prelims.but some concillors contradict themselves by telling us that we have to pay the full payments by this week.hey i am not rich,and i cant fork out $85 at one go.IT'S SO RIDICULOUS!!!!
(to 07s07: i am not sure if this is workable or not.but some of us did suggested to use the money to go for chalet and book our dinner at some nice restaurant,which in total will cost less than $85.what you guys think?)
second,prelims is coming in 2weeks times,and a level is 2months later.i am stressed.just stress.revision is not yet done,everyone is busy preparing and going at full force.but me?hopeless....
okay.stop.i need to rest.take care.
lots of things happened these few days.
okay.first,prom night.i have decided not to go.something happened.i have to pay all the expenses for prom all by myself.i feel ashamed to get the money from my parents.i am soon to be a 18years old girl,earning income as a tutor,i see no reason to get money from them.they need the money for some other stuffs too.even thuogh $85 is not ALOT,my classmates did offered to lend it to me first(they are seriously a nice group of people),but i always feel that it's not right to borrow money from others.and as the first daughter,i am obliged to lighten the burden of my parents.so i have decided not to go.
(to char,leah and minshan: thanks for understanding my situation and agree to not to for prom too.i am really sorry.because of me,you all decided to go.and because of me again,you girls didn't have the chance to go.i am sorry.)
(to the class 07s07: i am sorry.i was so enthu at first and persuaded stef they all to go.in the end,they had decided to go.but now,i back out.sorry.the previous time,you guys didn't wanted to go and after all the persuasion,thinking that it's a class thing,that's why you guys go.but now... i am really sorry.i feel bad.because of me,i took away everyone's hope to prom.i feel guilty.i know you all are already being understanding to lend me money,so that i can go for prom.but i hope you guys understand that prom does not only consist of the $85.you have to dress up and stuffs like this.i really can't afford it now.and i can't probably borrow all the money from you guys.thanks for the nice intention.)
and the $85 is far too ex for food like spring rolls,jasmine tea,honeydew sago and roasted chicken etc.we can have it outside at a much lower price.we get the super nice room (grand ballroom),but some kopitiam food?and why didn't we have the chance to choose our choice of hotel this year?last year,the seniors got to choose and they went to swissotel,had Daniel Ong as their DJ and they paid &85 too.now,we pay $85 too.but hilton hotel???so which superstar DJ are we going to have?it's not that i am finding fault on the 9th council.but things just don't seem logical.and during the previous assembly,they did mentioned that the first payment is this week and the second payment will be after our prelims.but some concillors contradict themselves by telling us that we have to pay the full payments by this week.hey i am not rich,and i cant fork out $85 at one go.IT'S SO RIDICULOUS!!!!
(to 07s07: i am not sure if this is workable or not.but some of us did suggested to use the money to go for chalet and book our dinner at some nice restaurant,which in total will cost less than $85.what you guys think?)
second,prelims is coming in 2weeks times,and a level is 2months later.i am stressed.just stress.revision is not yet done,everyone is busy preparing and going at full force.but me?hopeless....
okay.stop.i need to rest.take care.
when we are together,
9:53 PM.
9:53 PM.
