June 27, 2008
gone case!!!
2more papers to go.chem paper1 and 2 on monday and math paper2 on tues.and 6days of holidays after that.that is what i am looking forward to!!! SHOPPING SHOPPING SHOPPING!!!
econ paper is already bad.this time confirm get scolded by miss wong.
"POOR TIME MANAGEMENT!!!"
haha i didn't got to do one question.sad case.well as for chem paper3,just hope that i can pass.as for yesterday paper(math paper 1),the last question is insane.14MARKS for the last question?!i don't even know how to draw the graph =(
(to charlene:cheer up.it's over.everything will be fine.SMILE!!! =) )
today is my partner's birthday.HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! hope you will enjoy this special day.
(goal for the day: i hate studying.so must love studying.as quoted from the fat dumb lobster.HAHA!)
i am still learning.
learning to let go of you.
learning to walk pass without noticing you.
learning to treat you as a stranger.
learning to erase you from my memories.
you are living well without me.
it is just a dream.
i am still learning.i will and i must.
2more papers to go.chem paper1 and 2 on monday and math paper2 on tues.and 6days of holidays after that.that is what i am looking forward to!!! SHOPPING SHOPPING SHOPPING!!!
econ paper is already bad.this time confirm get scolded by miss wong.
"POOR TIME MANAGEMENT!!!"
haha i didn't got to do one question.sad case.well as for chem paper3,just hope that i can pass.as for yesterday paper(math paper 1),the last question is insane.14MARKS for the last question?!i don't even know how to draw the graph =(
(to charlene:cheer up.it's over.everything will be fine.SMILE!!! =) )
today is my partner's birthday.HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! hope you will enjoy this special day.
(goal for the day: i hate studying.so must love studying.as quoted from the fat dumb lobster.HAHA!)
i am still learning.
learning to let go of you.
learning to walk pass without noticing you.
learning to treat you as a stranger.
learning to erase you from my memories.
you are living well without me.
it is just a dream.
i am still learning.i will and i must.
when we are together,
4:17 PM.
4:17 PM.
June 15, 2008
there is always a story behind each and everyone of us.
at times,stories are just meant to be kept deep in your heart.no one will know.but if you are willing to share,at least someone will know and is willing to share the burden with you.
tomorrow is father's day.
i met this grandfather and his grandson recently.this grandfather was holding onto the grandson's hand.tight and warm.as an outsider,i can feel the link between them.the protection towards the grandson.but i just can't control my thought but was thinking: will this grandson protect his grandfather in the future,just like how the grandfather is protecting him now?
cold war is like occuring between my daddy and i.i was selected for malaysia National Service.because of forgetfulness,he forget to help me defer.i don't blame him.because it is my responsibility to settle my own matter and i am old enough to do it myself,and i know he is busy with his work too.he comes home everyday with sighs.i know he feels stressed out.
he is getting old.he has strands of white hair.
but i can't bring myself to talk to him.silence...
anyway i was blog-hopping.and came across this blog.rather true.
"blogging is the only way for breathing"
i used to have 3blogs in the past.i read all those blog before i created this.and i realized.blogging is the only proof of the past.i realized how childish i used to be.being in and out of love.taking everything for granted.never reaize the fact that "once it's gone,it's gone forever".maybe blogging is the only way for us to take a breathe out of our busy life and breathe in DEEPLY!
"blogging is the only way to rest"
sometimes blogging is also the only way to show our regrets towards life.
2008 is already half way through.i miss the beginning of the year.ogl camp,orientation,meeting my og group,pae pot-luck and more.it was so fun.and that was how things got started.but it ended in the end.with regrets.people were full of comments.things shouldn't have started at all.at least i don't need to go through all these sufferings.getting into it,being used to the presence of it and getting out of it.but i know.it's all the past now.bravely move on may seem a better option now.everyone has moved on without you.you are again being left at the starting point.no one can help you,except for you yourself.giving up isn't easy at all.holding onto it and continue my life may seem to be an easy way out.
anyway,one more week.mid year exam is starting soon.argh! i just realized that i can't study at all when i am at home.i can feel the stress when i am still left with so much to study.
(goal for the day: mug!!!)
to all fathers: HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!
at times,stories are just meant to be kept deep in your heart.no one will know.but if you are willing to share,at least someone will know and is willing to share the burden with you.
tomorrow is father's day.
i met this grandfather and his grandson recently.this grandfather was holding onto the grandson's hand.tight and warm.as an outsider,i can feel the link between them.the protection towards the grandson.but i just can't control my thought but was thinking: will this grandson protect his grandfather in the future,just like how the grandfather is protecting him now?
cold war is like occuring between my daddy and i.i was selected for malaysia National Service.because of forgetfulness,he forget to help me defer.i don't blame him.because it is my responsibility to settle my own matter and i am old enough to do it myself,and i know he is busy with his work too.he comes home everyday with sighs.i know he feels stressed out.
he is getting old.he has strands of white hair.
but i can't bring myself to talk to him.silence...
anyway i was blog-hopping.and came across this blog.rather true.
"blogging is the only way for breathing"
i used to have 3blogs in the past.i read all those blog before i created this.and i realized.blogging is the only proof of the past.i realized how childish i used to be.being in and out of love.taking everything for granted.never reaize the fact that "once it's gone,it's gone forever".maybe blogging is the only way for us to take a breathe out of our busy life and breathe in DEEPLY!
"blogging is the only way to rest"
sometimes blogging is also the only way to show our regrets towards life.
2008 is already half way through.i miss the beginning of the year.ogl camp,orientation,meeting my og group,pae pot-luck and more.it was so fun.and that was how things got started.but it ended in the end.with regrets.people were full of comments.things shouldn't have started at all.at least i don't need to go through all these sufferings.getting into it,being used to the presence of it and getting out of it.but i know.it's all the past now.bravely move on may seem a better option now.everyone has moved on without you.you are again being left at the starting point.no one can help you,except for you yourself.giving up isn't easy at all.holding onto it and continue my life may seem to be an easy way out.
anyway,one more week.mid year exam is starting soon.argh! i just realized that i can't study at all when i am at home.i can feel the stress when i am still left with so much to study.
(goal for the day: mug!!!)
to all fathers: HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!
when we are together,
12:23 AM.
12:23 AM.
June 8, 2008
life wasn't meant to be like this...
life seem much simplier when we were young.
as we get older,things start to pile up.
relationship,friendship,studies,family matters and STRESS!!!
it is a lot.but why does it seem so complicated too?maybe when the amount of choices,that we are provided with,increases,things seem to get more out of hand.
it is not that we are greedy.it's just that we think we can handle it.
"one is never enough when you are able to handle it well.
but one is too much when you fail to do so."
life was simplier when we were young,because we do not get to choose and neither do we have the chance to choose.isn't it good that we are given the chance now?life is so tiring now.every turn you make in your life,you have to choose and have to choose wisely because it is going to have an impact on your life.
i am tired of all these choosing.
in relationship,you have to choose the right man.you will never want that guy to two-time you or fool you around and ditch you when he has enough of the fun.
"is it better to be attached or be single?"
"is it better to be loved or to love someone more?"
in friendship,you have to choose someone who is willing to trust you and stay by you no matter what happens.a friend is someone who is unwilling to believe in his/her ears but believe in his/her eyes.one who does not believe in gossips and rumours but you.
"is it better to have more acquaintances and lesser close friends or to have lesser acquaintances but more closer friends?"
as for studies,in singapore,you can't survive without any cert or education.but life is getting harder and more stressful as you proceed to higher level of education.
A level is my nightmare now!!!
15days to mid year and 130plus days to A level.
"is it better to choose the school that you want or the school chooses who she wants?"
why can't life be simplier?and not with that much of choices.
i want to live the life i want.but it will never be possible.the world does not rotate for me,but for everyone.i have to live in this world together with others and accept everything that i am given with,no matter whether it is good or bad.maybe it is just the process of growing up and learning.
the bad stuffs,that you always hear,are to make you tougher and equip you with the necessary skills as you grow up.
the good stuffs,that you are given with,are to encourage you to move on further on this tiring and stressful road.
how beautiful the world is going to be if all you hear are good stuffs.but it is never possible.humans are borned with a mouth to talk and to comment.but it is not always bad to keep your mouth shut and leave all the thoughts to yourself.
(goal for the day: live for yourself,but not for others.)
life seem much simplier when we were young.
as we get older,things start to pile up.
relationship,friendship,studies,family matters and STRESS!!!
it is a lot.but why does it seem so complicated too?maybe when the amount of choices,that we are provided with,increases,things seem to get more out of hand.
it is not that we are greedy.it's just that we think we can handle it.
"one is never enough when you are able to handle it well.
but one is too much when you fail to do so."
life was simplier when we were young,because we do not get to choose and neither do we have the chance to choose.isn't it good that we are given the chance now?life is so tiring now.every turn you make in your life,you have to choose and have to choose wisely because it is going to have an impact on your life.
i am tired of all these choosing.
in relationship,you have to choose the right man.you will never want that guy to two-time you or fool you around and ditch you when he has enough of the fun.
"is it better to be attached or be single?"
"is it better to be loved or to love someone more?"
in friendship,you have to choose someone who is willing to trust you and stay by you no matter what happens.a friend is someone who is unwilling to believe in his/her ears but believe in his/her eyes.one who does not believe in gossips and rumours but you.
"is it better to have more acquaintances and lesser close friends or to have lesser acquaintances but more closer friends?"
as for studies,in singapore,you can't survive without any cert or education.but life is getting harder and more stressful as you proceed to higher level of education.
A level is my nightmare now!!!
15days to mid year and 130plus days to A level.
"is it better to choose the school that you want or the school chooses who she wants?"
why can't life be simplier?and not with that much of choices.
i want to live the life i want.but it will never be possible.the world does not rotate for me,but for everyone.i have to live in this world together with others and accept everything that i am given with,no matter whether it is good or bad.maybe it is just the process of growing up and learning.
the bad stuffs,that you always hear,are to make you tougher and equip you with the necessary skills as you grow up.
the good stuffs,that you are given with,are to encourage you to move on further on this tiring and stressful road.
how beautiful the world is going to be if all you hear are good stuffs.but it is never possible.humans are borned with a mouth to talk and to comment.but it is not always bad to keep your mouth shut and leave all the thoughts to yourself.
(goal for the day: live for yourself,but not for others.)
when we are together,
9:18 PM.
9:18 PM.
June 3, 2008
i think i am addicted to "PS I love you"
it's a nice book.but it just make me feel sad.
i have been reading it again and again.trying to read between the lines,trying hard to search for more different meanings in it.
why will we only learn how to appreciate it after we lost something precious?everyone is trying to learn how to live well.but how to live well when she has no life?
holding on will just make you feel worse.letting it go is much harder than what you have expected.
she has been taking things for granted.thinking that they are just meant to be together.but when one gives up and leaves first,leaving another behind,has anyone wonder before how the other person will feel?does anyone understand what she is going through?
she seems to have forgot how to live.
everyone has moved on without her.life is no longer the same.she has got used to keeping her mouth shut,thinking she is a superwoman.and do not allow tears to flow down her cheeks.just refuse to let anyone see the fragile side of hers.words are just too hard to be spoken in words.
shall not be selfish and let him go.memories are just the foot steps of the past.
what others think shall affect her no more.what she needs now is time...
this song suits the story best.
Better in Time-- Leona Lewis
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remaind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
(goal for the day:maybe this book is meant to be non-friction.learn from it and accept it)
it's a nice book.but it just make me feel sad.
i have been reading it again and again.trying to read between the lines,trying hard to search for more different meanings in it.
why will we only learn how to appreciate it after we lost something precious?everyone is trying to learn how to live well.but how to live well when she has no life?
holding on will just make you feel worse.letting it go is much harder than what you have expected.
she has been taking things for granted.thinking that they are just meant to be together.but when one gives up and leaves first,leaving another behind,has anyone wonder before how the other person will feel?does anyone understand what she is going through?
she seems to have forgot how to live.
everyone has moved on without her.life is no longer the same.she has got used to keeping her mouth shut,thinking she is a superwoman.and do not allow tears to flow down her cheeks.just refuse to let anyone see the fragile side of hers.words are just too hard to be spoken in words.
shall not be selfish and let him go.memories are just the foot steps of the past.
what others think shall affect her no more.what she needs now is time...
this song suits the story best.
Better in Time-- Leona Lewis
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remaind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
(goal for the day:maybe this book is meant to be non-friction.learn from it and accept it)
when we are together,
3:19 PM.
3:19 PM.
