May 30, 2008
today will be my doom day.
i took my gsc paper today.i felt quite relieved after the paper but after that i realized i wrote out of point for the compo.no hope for my h1 paper anymore.i don't wish to fail.i don't want miss wong to call my parents.argh.just hope that i will pass.
just like what fanqin says,it is over and must really work very hard for the rest of the 3 h2 subjects.3more weeks left.
anyway,i walked past that friend today.again,no smile exists between us.the fact that friendship is never possible between us and that's the reality.
(goal for the day: study econ! and accept it.)
i took my gsc paper today.i felt quite relieved after the paper but after that i realized i wrote out of point for the compo.no hope for my h1 paper anymore.i don't wish to fail.i don't want miss wong to call my parents.argh.just hope that i will pass.
just like what fanqin says,it is over and must really work very hard for the rest of the 3 h2 subjects.3more weeks left.
anyway,i walked past that friend today.again,no smile exists between us.the fact that friendship is never possible between us and that's the reality.
(goal for the day: study econ! and accept it.)
when we are together,
6:54 PM.
6:54 PM.
May 28, 2008
i have lost count with the number of days where i didn't updated my blog.but at least i update it TODAY!!!
well.these few days,i have tried different things and experienced different things.
on the 19th may,i went home early to MAKE MY OWN CHOCOLATE!!!for a friend's birthday.well,it's not the first time,but second time.this time,the chocolate tasted different and smell different too.it's not that sweet and smell like dark chocolate.and i didn't mixed with oats,but with corn flakes.and the process of mixing is so tough.it is just impossible to mix hot chocolate with corn flakes and still have crunchy corn flakes.ARGH! so frustrating.
i got back one of my econ test.i passed.FINALLY.14/25.which made me so happy and excited for the whole day.i finally see the light at the end of the dark tunnel.i see hope in passing econ for mid year.must really work very hard.and aim for my C.way to go... ...
then,23th may,we have our gp mid year paper.well expected.i screwed up that paper.just hope that i can pass.and do well for the rest of the papers.anyway i went leah's house today after the gp paper to bake cakes with her.WOW I BAKED CAKES?!
we baked a lot of cakes from 4 to 9.30.one cake for minshan's birthday,10cupcakes for leah and 6cupcakes for THE IDIOT FRIEND.well all the cakes turned out pretty well.but i just don't understand why my cakes suddenly became very oily when i reached home.was it because i added in too much butter?or it is just made to be like this?or was it just the lie my daddy had said?because he was the one who commented on my cupcakes that it was too oily.(maybe it is just too nice that he can't bring it to his mouth to praise me?)i was so sad when he said that.because i don't want my idiot friend to try the oily cake. :( but in the end,i gave my idiot friend the oily cake and the chocolate i made.but i didn't gave away all the 6cupcakes.i only gave 3.because I ATE THE REST!!!hahaha.
minshan's birthday falls on the monday 26th may.we planned a surprise outing for her.we went to sentosa for tanning(when there was no sun! ) and we did a lot of stupid stuffs there.like pretending that we were in hawaii and took all kinds of scenery photos.we were so upset that there wasn't any sun.so we decided to go vivo for the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE!!!
but everything was still so expensive.
leah bought a dress top for $113 from warehouse.but the staff was so nice to give her a 20% discount SECRETLY.and i forgot what the rest bought.
as for me,i bought a $88 bag.but i only paid $44.such a good bargain.somemore it was from forever21.and a L size dress top for $43(no discount for this).
okay okay.that's all for the shopping spree.i am going for more.but next time.too broke to go now.
anyway i got to stop now.that irritating yijie wants to take photos with my lappy.IN SCHOOL!!! when she is supposed to study for her physics paper.
(goal for the day: save up for more shopping spree!)
well.these few days,i have tried different things and experienced different things.
on the 19th may,i went home early to MAKE MY OWN CHOCOLATE!!!for a friend's birthday.well,it's not the first time,but second time.this time,the chocolate tasted different and smell different too.it's not that sweet and smell like dark chocolate.and i didn't mixed with oats,but with corn flakes.and the process of mixing is so tough.it is just impossible to mix hot chocolate with corn flakes and still have crunchy corn flakes.ARGH! so frustrating.
i got back one of my econ test.i passed.FINALLY.14/25.which made me so happy and excited for the whole day.i finally see the light at the end of the dark tunnel.i see hope in passing econ for mid year.must really work very hard.and aim for my C.way to go... ...
then,23th may,we have our gp mid year paper.well expected.i screwed up that paper.just hope that i can pass.and do well for the rest of the papers.anyway i went leah's house today after the gp paper to bake cakes with her.WOW I BAKED CAKES?!
we baked a lot of cakes from 4 to 9.30.one cake for minshan's birthday,10cupcakes for leah and 6cupcakes for THE IDIOT FRIEND.well all the cakes turned out pretty well.but i just don't understand why my cakes suddenly became very oily when i reached home.was it because i added in too much butter?or it is just made to be like this?or was it just the lie my daddy had said?because he was the one who commented on my cupcakes that it was too oily.(maybe it is just too nice that he can't bring it to his mouth to praise me?)i was so sad when he said that.because i don't want my idiot friend to try the oily cake. :( but in the end,i gave my idiot friend the oily cake and the chocolate i made.but i didn't gave away all the 6cupcakes.i only gave 3.because I ATE THE REST!!!hahaha.
minshan's birthday falls on the monday 26th may.we planned a surprise outing for her.we went to sentosa for tanning(when there was no sun! ) and we did a lot of stupid stuffs there.like pretending that we were in hawaii and took all kinds of scenery photos.we were so upset that there wasn't any sun.so we decided to go vivo for the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE!!!
but everything was still so expensive.
leah bought a dress top for $113 from warehouse.but the staff was so nice to give her a 20% discount SECRETLY.and i forgot what the rest bought.
as for me,i bought a $88 bag.but i only paid $44.such a good bargain.somemore it was from forever21.and a L size dress top for $43(no discount for this).
okay okay.that's all for the shopping spree.i am going for more.but next time.too broke to go now.
anyway i got to stop now.that irritating yijie wants to take photos with my lappy.IN SCHOOL!!! when she is supposed to study for her physics paper.
(goal for the day: save up for more shopping spree!)
when we are together,
5:41 PM.
5:41 PM.
May 16, 2008
a week has passed.finally.
monday
just received a last minute notice that we have to hand in our project iCAN video by this wednesday.omg i have not even started.so anum,rachel and i went to hillgrove today and try to get it over and done with.mrs tham was so nice to fetch us from school.and we were shocked when we reached there.realized that the Technical Assistant of hillgrove had just resigned last fri.
then what happened to all our videos and photos? we went around the school,asking for help and try to retrieve all the videos and photos.that new Technical Assistant of hillgrove was so "LAW BY LAW". but he was nice to help us to transfer all the documents into our thumbdrives even though he refused to let us go into the com lab.we spent 5hours in hillgrove without doing any video.suddenly feel so helpless.
it is so hard to ask a technology noob like me to prepare a video.everything seems so stranger to me.but glad that i have finished the video.on time too.
tuesday
MRS TAY IS SUCH A GOOD TEACHER!!! everything seems so easy and simple after she had explained the nitrogen compound questions to minshan and i.how i wish i can really score well for chem MYE and maybe at least a B?
don't want to disappoint her again..and tomorrow is chem skill A exam.my doom day?!=(
wednesday
lessons just go as usual.but the assembly is an interesting one.it's on love and relationship.the speakers taught us how to show our love to others and how to differentiate between love,infatuation and lust.so as usual.leah,char and i did a lot of stupid stuffs during the assembly,despite how nervous we were feeling for the chem skill A exam after the assembly.
that is how wonderful friendship is.we cheer each other on and make one smile with all the silly actions.
back to the assembly.one of the speakers mentioned this: love is the best thing you could give to your beloved.everyone went out of love before and did feel depressed about it.
love is about "just admiting it and be honest about it."
"so no point pretending that you are happy and lie that you have ALREADY got over him.stop lying to yourself and be true about it.it's never shameful to admit that you still like him and still think of him.
JUST GIVE IT TIME!!! give yourself a chance to let it go."
it do sound cliche to say this.but time is always the best solution of all.all these lovey matters do not have a solution to it,neither do it have medicine or magic portion to cure it.maybe feelings and relationship do fade with time?
(to my besties: when the time ripes,i will get rid of that ugly,short and useless little finger of mine.what's not mine will never be mine.since that little finger is not doing anything,maybe life will be better without it?but again,TIME!!!)
well well.let's leave that topic aside.next,chem skill A exam.
mrs tay has freaked us out and has encouraged us a lot.sound rather contradicting though.she told us that we are only allowed to take skill A once in our lifetime.omg.what if i fail and what should i do?when opportunity only knocks once and i am not allowed to retake again?but she did encouraged us too.she said that we have done very well in all our practices.fret not and we are going to do well this time too.just hope that it will be true.
but i just can't control my emotions.i was feeling stressed and depressed half an hour before the exam.and I FORGOT ALL THE STUFFS THAT I HAD TO REMEMBER!!! my mind was completely blank and can't even recalled a single word when leah tested me.does that mean that i am going to fail?hope not...
thanks to char,leah and minshan.
all because of them,i get to remember all my stuffs in time.they created all weird hand signs for me,so as to remind myself what to write in the exam.and it do work!!!you girls are amazing.
woohoo.chem SPA has finally ended.no more practical.YEAH!!! no more memorizing of stuffs.i hate memorizing and to those who know me,definitely know that i am not at a very good term with that memorizing thing.
it's going to be a long day today.lessons are over,chem SPA is over and the next "highlight" of the day is project iCAN meeting.videos are supposed to be handed in today.well all the peer coaches are done with their videos,except for rachel.so we played in the loft,enjoying the air-con,while waiting for her.time passes fast without us realizing it.we played until 7pm! we played bingo on the board in the loft and drawed animals which don't even look like animals at the first place.IT'S SO FUN!!! =)
(to all 08 peer coaches: let's meet out more often and have fun together.)
thursday
finally had my 2.4km run today.13min 46sec. i nearly died after the run.my classmate said that i looked so pale after the run. well,because of that old injury,my calf hurt when i was running.somemore ai yue can't pace with me today.but CHAR and MINSHAN did.they both took turns to pace me for the run.so nice right?don't know why.i ran very slow for the first 5rounds,as a result,i took around 1min 50sec to run the last round in order to get my A.and I DID.30marks,full marks!!! i'm so happy.=)
after the run,i stayed back with my mugging partner,YIJIE to mug.exams are coming real soon.1more months?got to work hard.all the best,partner.then we also talked about some other stuffs.
(to her: i think everyone deserve a second chance.no point making groundless conclusion based on what you have heard.maybe that person is good?remember what i said before.in a world like this,the starting products will never be the same as the ending products.no point thinking of what people have said.don't be affected by those stupid comments.only those who truly don't understand you, will then make all those comments.just be yourself and know what you really want.you are the one who is making the decision.no one can help you in doing that. think carefully and never give yourself a chance to regret in what you have decided on.SMILE ^.^)
friday
i got back my gsc compo test today.i failed.it's really time for me to buck up.
anyway i went out with lunch with leah,char,minshan and jack today.FOOD IS SO NICE!!! okay i shall just admit it.i am a glutton.that stupid leah and minshan were still making fun of me that i woke up from my sleep upon hearing them talking about food during econ lecture.
(to leah and minshan: you two are so evil!!!)
well during the lunch,we "brain washed" jack.you can just imagine how noisy the situation is when a guy hangs out with 4girls who talk non-stop.and i have realized quite a lot of stuffs during this lunch session.
life requires one to be sensitive to others' thoughts and feelings.life needs changes.so do us.at times,being insensitive can hurt and irritate others.maybe one sentence,which means nothing much,will hurt someone to a large extent.to some,they may just think that they are borned this way and they will continue to be in this way.well this is not going to work in this society.and in this society,ABSOLUTE TERMS are seriously a NO NO!never jump into conclusions before you really know what is going on and what the truth is.
and i have another question.how can two items with the same features can look so different?is it because of how it is being created and structured?since they have the same features,why one can be a luxury good and the other be an unknown compound?is it because how it is being packaged,cause a difference too?does looks really matter that much?what is more superior than looks?maybe to some,looks are really everything and that is how their first impressions are based on.
next,project iCAN meeting.we gathered together today to prepare some momentoes for our mentees.it was so fun.cutting and pasting.but ...
IT'S A BAD PEER COACHES' DAY!!!
leah left without bringing her laptop home.i lost my ez link card.
that forgetful leah left her macbook with me and went home without getting back from me.before i realized it,she already boarded the bus.and i can't contact her too. that stupid lousy phone of hers.so we went all the way out just to pass her back her macbook.then when i boarded the bus,i realized MY EZ LINK card is not in my wallet,neither it is in my bag.i was freaked out.but leah,zhiying and jas were so nice to walk all the way back with me to school from phoenix LRT station.we searched every possible corners and even went to the General Office to ask sbout it.we also went to the coffee shop where i had my lunch in the afternoon.i was so sure that i had misplaced it because i thought i saw it in my bag before going for my lunch.i was so anxious.in the end,i gave up and went home.on the way back,i kept thinking of where on the earth my ez link card was at now.then i suddenly recalled.maybe i left it in my math file at home?because i also didn't use my card in the morning,that's why i am not sure too.then when i reached home,i dashed in just to find my card.guess what.I FOUND IT!!! yeah i didn't lost it,no need to pay $20 to make my ez link card again.
(to the 3girls: thanks for walking back with me and search for my ez link card for me,when you all are already so hungry.SORRY.)
tomorrow is pj college day and I HAVE TO GO.i don't want to go.it's going to be so boring and i could have done something more productive at home rather than going for that event.it is going to start at 3pm and ends at 5pm =( but we have promised mdm low that we will go tomorrow.well a promise is always a promise.shall pull myself there tomorrow.but what makes me look forward to tomorrow is that i am going to have dinner gathering with leah and them.it's going to be so fun.
somemore we will have a long weekend this week.YEAH!!!
got to stop here now.it is too much.too much to be a post of A DAY.
(goal for the day: stop being so absent-minded.)
monday
just received a last minute notice that we have to hand in our project iCAN video by this wednesday.omg i have not even started.so anum,rachel and i went to hillgrove today and try to get it over and done with.mrs tham was so nice to fetch us from school.and we were shocked when we reached there.realized that the Technical Assistant of hillgrove had just resigned last fri.
then what happened to all our videos and photos? we went around the school,asking for help and try to retrieve all the videos and photos.that new Technical Assistant of hillgrove was so "LAW BY LAW". but he was nice to help us to transfer all the documents into our thumbdrives even though he refused to let us go into the com lab.we spent 5hours in hillgrove without doing any video.suddenly feel so helpless.
it is so hard to ask a technology noob like me to prepare a video.everything seems so stranger to me.but glad that i have finished the video.on time too.
tuesday
MRS TAY IS SUCH A GOOD TEACHER!!! everything seems so easy and simple after she had explained the nitrogen compound questions to minshan and i.how i wish i can really score well for chem MYE and maybe at least a B?
don't want to disappoint her again..and tomorrow is chem skill A exam.my doom day?!=(
wednesday
lessons just go as usual.but the assembly is an interesting one.it's on love and relationship.the speakers taught us how to show our love to others and how to differentiate between love,infatuation and lust.so as usual.leah,char and i did a lot of stupid stuffs during the assembly,despite how nervous we were feeling for the chem skill A exam after the assembly.
that is how wonderful friendship is.we cheer each other on and make one smile with all the silly actions.
back to the assembly.one of the speakers mentioned this: love is the best thing you could give to your beloved.everyone went out of love before and did feel depressed about it.
love is about "just admiting it and be honest about it."
"so no point pretending that you are happy and lie that you have ALREADY got over him.stop lying to yourself and be true about it.it's never shameful to admit that you still like him and still think of him.
JUST GIVE IT TIME!!! give yourself a chance to let it go."
it do sound cliche to say this.but time is always the best solution of all.all these lovey matters do not have a solution to it,neither do it have medicine or magic portion to cure it.maybe feelings and relationship do fade with time?
(to my besties: when the time ripes,i will get rid of that ugly,short and useless little finger of mine.what's not mine will never be mine.since that little finger is not doing anything,maybe life will be better without it?but again,TIME!!!)
well well.let's leave that topic aside.next,chem skill A exam.
mrs tay has freaked us out and has encouraged us a lot.sound rather contradicting though.she told us that we are only allowed to take skill A once in our lifetime.omg.what if i fail and what should i do?when opportunity only knocks once and i am not allowed to retake again?but she did encouraged us too.she said that we have done very well in all our practices.fret not and we are going to do well this time too.just hope that it will be true.
but i just can't control my emotions.i was feeling stressed and depressed half an hour before the exam.and I FORGOT ALL THE STUFFS THAT I HAD TO REMEMBER!!! my mind was completely blank and can't even recalled a single word when leah tested me.does that mean that i am going to fail?hope not...
thanks to char,leah and minshan.
all because of them,i get to remember all my stuffs in time.they created all weird hand signs for me,so as to remind myself what to write in the exam.and it do work!!!you girls are amazing.
woohoo.chem SPA has finally ended.no more practical.YEAH!!! no more memorizing of stuffs.i hate memorizing and to those who know me,definitely know that i am not at a very good term with that memorizing thing.
it's going to be a long day today.lessons are over,chem SPA is over and the next "highlight" of the day is project iCAN meeting.videos are supposed to be handed in today.well all the peer coaches are done with their videos,except for rachel.so we played in the loft,enjoying the air-con,while waiting for her.time passes fast without us realizing it.we played until 7pm! we played bingo on the board in the loft and drawed animals which don't even look like animals at the first place.IT'S SO FUN!!! =)
(to all 08 peer coaches: let's meet out more often and have fun together.)
thursday
finally had my 2.4km run today.13min 46sec. i nearly died after the run.my classmate said that i looked so pale after the run. well,because of that old injury,my calf hurt when i was running.somemore ai yue can't pace with me today.but CHAR and MINSHAN did.they both took turns to pace me for the run.so nice right?don't know why.i ran very slow for the first 5rounds,as a result,i took around 1min 50sec to run the last round in order to get my A.and I DID.30marks,full marks!!! i'm so happy.=)
after the run,i stayed back with my mugging partner,YIJIE to mug.exams are coming real soon.1more months?got to work hard.all the best,partner.then we also talked about some other stuffs.
(to her: i think everyone deserve a second chance.no point making groundless conclusion based on what you have heard.maybe that person is good?remember what i said before.in a world like this,the starting products will never be the same as the ending products.no point thinking of what people have said.don't be affected by those stupid comments.only those who truly don't understand you, will then make all those comments.just be yourself and know what you really want.you are the one who is making the decision.no one can help you in doing that. think carefully and never give yourself a chance to regret in what you have decided on.SMILE ^.^)
friday
i got back my gsc compo test today.i failed.it's really time for me to buck up.
anyway i went out with lunch with leah,char,minshan and jack today.FOOD IS SO NICE!!! okay i shall just admit it.i am a glutton.that stupid leah and minshan were still making fun of me that i woke up from my sleep upon hearing them talking about food during econ lecture.
(to leah and minshan: you two are so evil!!!)
well during the lunch,we "brain washed" jack.you can just imagine how noisy the situation is when a guy hangs out with 4girls who talk non-stop.and i have realized quite a lot of stuffs during this lunch session.
life requires one to be sensitive to others' thoughts and feelings.life needs changes.so do us.at times,being insensitive can hurt and irritate others.maybe one sentence,which means nothing much,will hurt someone to a large extent.to some,they may just think that they are borned this way and they will continue to be in this way.well this is not going to work in this society.and in this society,ABSOLUTE TERMS are seriously a NO NO!never jump into conclusions before you really know what is going on and what the truth is.
and i have another question.how can two items with the same features can look so different?is it because of how it is being created and structured?since they have the same features,why one can be a luxury good and the other be an unknown compound?is it because how it is being packaged,cause a difference too?does looks really matter that much?what is more superior than looks?maybe to some,looks are really everything and that is how their first impressions are based on.
next,project iCAN meeting.we gathered together today to prepare some momentoes for our mentees.it was so fun.cutting and pasting.but ...
IT'S A BAD PEER COACHES' DAY!!!
leah left without bringing her laptop home.i lost my ez link card.
that forgetful leah left her macbook with me and went home without getting back from me.before i realized it,she already boarded the bus.and i can't contact her too. that stupid lousy phone of hers.so we went all the way out just to pass her back her macbook.then when i boarded the bus,i realized MY EZ LINK card is not in my wallet,neither it is in my bag.i was freaked out.but leah,zhiying and jas were so nice to walk all the way back with me to school from phoenix LRT station.we searched every possible corners and even went to the General Office to ask sbout it.we also went to the coffee shop where i had my lunch in the afternoon.i was so sure that i had misplaced it because i thought i saw it in my bag before going for my lunch.i was so anxious.in the end,i gave up and went home.on the way back,i kept thinking of where on the earth my ez link card was at now.then i suddenly recalled.maybe i left it in my math file at home?because i also didn't use my card in the morning,that's why i am not sure too.then when i reached home,i dashed in just to find my card.guess what.I FOUND IT!!! yeah i didn't lost it,no need to pay $20 to make my ez link card again.
(to the 3girls: thanks for walking back with me and search for my ez link card for me,when you all are already so hungry.SORRY.)
tomorrow is pj college day and I HAVE TO GO.i don't want to go.it's going to be so boring and i could have done something more productive at home rather than going for that event.it is going to start at 3pm and ends at 5pm =( but we have promised mdm low that we will go tomorrow.well a promise is always a promise.shall pull myself there tomorrow.but what makes me look forward to tomorrow is that i am going to have dinner gathering with leah and them.it's going to be so fun.
somemore we will have a long weekend this week.YEAH!!!
got to stop here now.it is too much.too much to be a post of A DAY.
(goal for the day: stop being so absent-minded.)
when we are together,
11:04 PM.
11:04 PM.
May 9, 2008
there are too much things for me to handle.
wednesday:
i had my chem test today and i only realized my careless mistakes after the test.just hope that i will not fail that time.
next,our last match for this year tournament.well i admit.i was so lazy and so reluctant to go today.because there are far too much homeworks.i am being buried by all these homeworks.but at least i went.for my team mates,for my team.i played the third single today.it was so stress for me because our results for the first 4plays was 2-2.i am the last player of the match.but i lost.even though my team mates said that it's okay and it's true that my opponent is a tough one to play with.but this was a very important match for us and we all know.sorry that i didn't put in enough effort to train for single and as a result,i lost the match.sorry.
(to pj girls shuttlers: i am sorry that i lost and because of me,we can't win NJC this year.sorry)
thursday:
math.i am lagging behind with all my math revision packages and tutorials.binomial and poisson.ARGH!!! they are so confusing.
chem.i wonder if i am doing the right way for my skill A.mrs tay has been "drawing" on my script and most probably i did it in the wrong way.I WANT TO GET MY LEVEL8!!!
econ.i am starting to love what i am doing during econs.econs seems easier now.but i am still afraid of mid year exam.don't want to flunk again.
nothing much for today.but just school works.school works and more school works!!!
friday:
MY TOOTH HURTS!!!
i can't stand it anymore.i went to the dentist today and received a horrible news.i skipped gp lesson today together with charlene so as to go to find a dentist.
(to charlene: you are so nice to go with me.thanks lots.because i am so afraid of dentist and going for dental check up alone.thanks bestie!but sorry that you have to skip gp lesson too.)
we went CCK polyclinic first,but it has closed down since 1 february 2008.so we went to CCK area to look for a dental clinic.we first went into a GYNAE CLINIC.because we saw the board outside saying that it's a dental clinic.the nurse was so shocked to see us in there.haha
then we realized that the dental clinic is at the other end.we went in during the dentist's lunch break and she still attended to me.she is so nice!! =) i told the dentist how painful my tooth was.and after the check up,she told me that I HAD GUM INFECTION! i always thought that my wisdom tooth was growing.that's why it hurt so much.but it wasn't the truth.she said it was rather dangerous for me if i am not going to seek treatment asap so she suggested that i should go for root canal or extraction of tooth.but i need the permission of my parents because i am not 21years old yet.
(for your info: Endodontic therapy is a sequence of treatment for the pulp of a tooth whose end result is the elimination of infection and protection of the decontaminated tooth from future microbial invasion. Although this set of procedures is commonly referred to as a root canal, this term is imprecise; root canals and their associated pulp chamber are the anatomical hollows within a tooth which are naturally inhabited by nerve tissue, blood vessels and a number of other cellular entities, whereas endodontic therapy includes the complete removal of these structures, the subsequent cleaning, shaping and decontamination of these hollows with the use of tiny files and irrigating solutions and the obturation, or filling, of the decontaminated root canals with an inert filling, such as gutta percha and a usually eugenol-based cement. After the surgery the tooth will be "dead", and if the infection is spread at apex - root end surgery is required.)
but both cost a lot.i was wondering which one should i go for.and it's time for me to cut down on my shopping spree and save up for my dental treatment.
root canal --- around $750 to $1000++
extraction of tooth --- around $100++
root canal is more for the long term.as for the tooth extraction,it will brings along with quite a number of disadvantages.like for example,because i am extracting the last tooth in my bottom row of teeth(molar),so if i extract out that tooth,all the teeth will have the possibility of moving backward and i will have spaces in between the teeth.which is going to be SO UGLY!!!that's why if i am going for tooth extraction,i will have to put braces after that.which is going to cost me another $3000++.somemore braces hurt too.i don't want the ulcers.
argh.how i wish the money will just drop from the sky.got to save up so much now.i still want to buy my phone in june.well i shall wait and see how then.as for now,i am on medication.and shall wait till i have enough money to go for either one of the treatments.i shall not depend on my parents anymore.their financial burdens are increasing too.shall support myself with the miserable amount that i have earned in giving tuition.
IT HURTS SO MUCH NOW THAT MY GUM IS SWOLLEN!!! well i shall now brush my teeth more often.like 5times a day?brush after every meal?i think i am crazy.
the dentist also said that i need to avoid solid food and sweet stuffs.but FOOD IS MY LIFE.how am i going to live without all those sweet stuffs,like chocolate?argh.i want my chocolate,marshmallows and more sweets!
carina,charlene,leah,minshan and i went to lot1 for our lunch after my dental consultation.they forced me to eat porridge.argh! i want my japanese cuisine,i want my pepper lunch,i want everything except PORRIDGE!somemore my daddy still bought me porridge for dinner.I DON'T LIKE PORRIDGE!!!
(to the four listed above: shall we go for lunch on every friday?just like what we did today?it's so fun! =) and thanks for monitoring me and controling me so as to stop me from eating those undesired food and those i am not supposed to eat.)
tomorrow finally is a SATURDAY!!! but i think i shall stay at home and give my tooth a day off.the pain is just simply killing me!
leave the irritating tooth aside.the next topic of the day is on our life.
question: what exactly do we work hard for?
answer: a good uni cert?a good future?for our parents?
for me,my answer will be none of the above.i don't know what i am working for.but the only thing i know is that our lives are just planned in this manner.as to survive in this realistic world,you have to study.because it's the survival of the fittest.many say that jc life will be the worst of your life.i agree.it's only May now ans teachers are going so fast that i can't even catch up with the class.5more months.just 5more months.everything will be over soon and the fun will rule your life instead of studies
(to all: everything,no matter how hard and sad it is now,will pass and be over soon.WAY TO GO,PEOPLE!!!)
well i think this post is too long for the day.so i shall stop here and time for my medicine!
(goal for the day: hope that my tooth will recover soon and i don't need to go for that expensive treatment.)
wednesday:
i had my chem test today and i only realized my careless mistakes after the test.just hope that i will not fail that time.
next,our last match for this year tournament.well i admit.i was so lazy and so reluctant to go today.because there are far too much homeworks.i am being buried by all these homeworks.but at least i went.for my team mates,for my team.i played the third single today.it was so stress for me because our results for the first 4plays was 2-2.i am the last player of the match.but i lost.even though my team mates said that it's okay and it's true that my opponent is a tough one to play with.but this was a very important match for us and we all know.sorry that i didn't put in enough effort to train for single and as a result,i lost the match.sorry.
(to pj girls shuttlers: i am sorry that i lost and because of me,we can't win NJC this year.sorry)
thursday:
math.i am lagging behind with all my math revision packages and tutorials.binomial and poisson.ARGH!!! they are so confusing.
chem.i wonder if i am doing the right way for my skill A.mrs tay has been "drawing" on my script and most probably i did it in the wrong way.I WANT TO GET MY LEVEL8!!!
econ.i am starting to love what i am doing during econs.econs seems easier now.but i am still afraid of mid year exam.don't want to flunk again.
nothing much for today.but just school works.school works and more school works!!!
friday:
MY TOOTH HURTS!!!
i can't stand it anymore.i went to the dentist today and received a horrible news.i skipped gp lesson today together with charlene so as to go to find a dentist.
(to charlene: you are so nice to go with me.thanks lots.because i am so afraid of dentist and going for dental check up alone.thanks bestie!but sorry that you have to skip gp lesson too.)
we went CCK polyclinic first,but it has closed down since 1 february 2008.so we went to CCK area to look for a dental clinic.we first went into a GYNAE CLINIC.because we saw the board outside saying that it's a dental clinic.the nurse was so shocked to see us in there.haha
then we realized that the dental clinic is at the other end.we went in during the dentist's lunch break and she still attended to me.she is so nice!! =) i told the dentist how painful my tooth was.and after the check up,she told me that I HAD GUM INFECTION! i always thought that my wisdom tooth was growing.that's why it hurt so much.but it wasn't the truth.she said it was rather dangerous for me if i am not going to seek treatment asap so she suggested that i should go for root canal or extraction of tooth.but i need the permission of my parents because i am not 21years old yet.
(for your info: Endodontic therapy is a sequence of treatment for the pulp of a tooth whose end result is the elimination of infection and protection of the decontaminated tooth from future microbial invasion. Although this set of procedures is commonly referred to as a root canal, this term is imprecise; root canals and their associated pulp chamber are the anatomical hollows within a tooth which are naturally inhabited by nerve tissue, blood vessels and a number of other cellular entities, whereas endodontic therapy includes the complete removal of these structures, the subsequent cleaning, shaping and decontamination of these hollows with the use of tiny files and irrigating solutions and the obturation, or filling, of the decontaminated root canals with an inert filling, such as gutta percha and a usually eugenol-based cement. After the surgery the tooth will be "dead", and if the infection is spread at apex - root end surgery is required.)
but both cost a lot.i was wondering which one should i go for.and it's time for me to cut down on my shopping spree and save up for my dental treatment.
root canal --- around $750 to $1000++
extraction of tooth --- around $100++
root canal is more for the long term.as for the tooth extraction,it will brings along with quite a number of disadvantages.like for example,because i am extracting the last tooth in my bottom row of teeth(molar),so if i extract out that tooth,all the teeth will have the possibility of moving backward and i will have spaces in between the teeth.which is going to be SO UGLY!!!that's why if i am going for tooth extraction,i will have to put braces after that.which is going to cost me another $3000++.somemore braces hurt too.i don't want the ulcers.
argh.how i wish the money will just drop from the sky.got to save up so much now.i still want to buy my phone in june.well i shall wait and see how then.as for now,i am on medication.and shall wait till i have enough money to go for either one of the treatments.i shall not depend on my parents anymore.their financial burdens are increasing too.shall support myself with the miserable amount that i have earned in giving tuition.
IT HURTS SO MUCH NOW THAT MY GUM IS SWOLLEN!!! well i shall now brush my teeth more often.like 5times a day?brush after every meal?i think i am crazy.
the dentist also said that i need to avoid solid food and sweet stuffs.but FOOD IS MY LIFE.how am i going to live without all those sweet stuffs,like chocolate?argh.i want my chocolate,marshmallows and more sweets!
carina,charlene,leah,minshan and i went to lot1 for our lunch after my dental consultation.they forced me to eat porridge.argh! i want my japanese cuisine,i want my pepper lunch,i want everything except PORRIDGE!somemore my daddy still bought me porridge for dinner.I DON'T LIKE PORRIDGE!!!
(to the four listed above: shall we go for lunch on every friday?just like what we did today?it's so fun! =) and thanks for monitoring me and controling me so as to stop me from eating those undesired food and those i am not supposed to eat.)
tomorrow finally is a SATURDAY!!! but i think i shall stay at home and give my tooth a day off.the pain is just simply killing me!
leave the irritating tooth aside.the next topic of the day is on our life.
question: what exactly do we work hard for?
answer: a good uni cert?a good future?for our parents?
for me,my answer will be none of the above.i don't know what i am working for.but the only thing i know is that our lives are just planned in this manner.as to survive in this realistic world,you have to study.because it's the survival of the fittest.many say that jc life will be the worst of your life.i agree.it's only May now ans teachers are going so fast that i can't even catch up with the class.5more months.just 5more months.everything will be over soon and the fun will rule your life instead of studies
(to all: everything,no matter how hard and sad it is now,will pass and be over soon.WAY TO GO,PEOPLE!!!)
well i think this post is too long for the day.so i shall stop here and time for my medicine!
(goal for the day: hope that my tooth will recover soon and i don't need to go for that expensive treatment.)
when we are together,
10:41 PM.
10:41 PM.
May 6, 2008
SHE brighten up my day.yes it's a SHE!!!
well she is my eating partner(MINSHAN) and she did something sweet today.she wrote me a letter and there it goes:
a bell is not a bell,
until someone rings it.
a song is not a song,
until someone sings it.
please do not bury your feeling.
Because love is not love,until someone receives it.
well i seriously need to calm myself down and find out what i really want in my life.
3aces?SMU Finance Faculty?Top 10 improved students?
i need to work hard to achieve all these.i know it's hard.but if i am willing to put in the effort,i think i can make it through.
i have been spending 25/24 hours of my day,preparing for A level.but it just don't seem productive.and it seem that i am just having the quantity of studying,not the quality of working hard.
slow and steady.one step at a time.
i want to play.i want to shop.i want to relax and enjoy my life.i want to go to Hong Kong and shop like there is no tomorrow...
i want.i want.i want.
just like what Mrs Tay has said."do you want to work hard for the rest of the 5months and enjoy the rest of your life?or do you want to enjoy this 5months and work hard the rest of your life?
obviously.i will choose the first option.
but i need a miracle to score well.
but i know.again behind this miracle,you need to work hard and create a chance for it to happen.
a piece of encouragement to all people who are trying to work hard just like i do:
time is running out.but don't fear.because what it matters is the process of studying and not the result of it.but i know,just like what charlene has said,in this cruel and realistic world,nothing matters as much as a piece of cert.even though this sounds rather contradicting,we still have to accept it.the only way to keep us going on this tough A level route is to view this whole thing in an optimistic way and believe it ourselves.trust that you can do it.
(goal for the day: take off that mask which is faking the smile.the true smile in life is to enjoy every moment of your life and love what you are doing.)
well she is my eating partner(MINSHAN) and she did something sweet today.she wrote me a letter and there it goes:
a bell is not a bell,
until someone rings it.
a song is not a song,
until someone sings it.
please do not bury your feeling.
Because love is not love,until someone receives it.
well i seriously need to calm myself down and find out what i really want in my life.
3aces?SMU Finance Faculty?Top 10 improved students?
i need to work hard to achieve all these.i know it's hard.but if i am willing to put in the effort,i think i can make it through.
i have been spending 25/24 hours of my day,preparing for A level.but it just don't seem productive.and it seem that i am just having the quantity of studying,not the quality of working hard.
slow and steady.one step at a time.
i want to play.i want to shop.i want to relax and enjoy my life.i want to go to Hong Kong and shop like there is no tomorrow...
i want.i want.i want.
just like what Mrs Tay has said."do you want to work hard for the rest of the 5months and enjoy the rest of your life?or do you want to enjoy this 5months and work hard the rest of your life?
obviously.i will choose the first option.
but i need a miracle to score well.
but i know.again behind this miracle,you need to work hard and create a chance for it to happen.
a piece of encouragement to all people who are trying to work hard just like i do:
time is running out.but don't fear.because what it matters is the process of studying and not the result of it.but i know,just like what charlene has said,in this cruel and realistic world,nothing matters as much as a piece of cert.even though this sounds rather contradicting,we still have to accept it.the only way to keep us going on this tough A level route is to view this whole thing in an optimistic way and believe it ourselves.trust that you can do it.
(goal for the day: take off that mask which is faking the smile.the true smile in life is to enjoy every moment of your life and love what you are doing.)
when we are together,
3:15 PM.
3:15 PM.
May 5, 2008
it's not my day today.
today had started off with econ test.bad bad bad.i think i misinterpreted the question.what's the domestic economy?singapore?china?or America?i think i am going to flunk this test.most probably i will just get 7/25?it's just so bad.
next,math lecture.i just can't understand what the lecturer is talking about.binomial distribution?poisson distribution?normal distribution?can anyone just be kind and tell me what is the difference between all these three?
i am dying.can't catch up with all these anymore.and i finally realized something.homeworks are not meant to be left to the next day.because we have homeworks everyday and they will just piled up continuously.and it's just impossible to finish all in one day.so let's take a step at a time and try to finish it slowly.
time is no longer at my side.
just receive my mid year exam schedule today.the sad thing:exams are starting soon.i got to get myself started and this time,no last minute work is allowed.
gp: 23rd may 2008
gsc: 30th may 2008
econ P1 and P2: 24th june 2008
chem P3: 25th june 2008
math P1: 26th june 2008
chem P1 and P2: 30th june 2008
math P2: 1st july 2008
the good thing is that exams only start after the june holiday.which means i have more time to study?and something to look forward to it.I HAVE NO SCHOOL ON THE 2ND JULY AND ALL THE WAY TO 7TH JULY!!! yeah.shopping shopping and more shopping.
school work aside.as for now,badminton first.we played against raffles today and i played the first doubles with yanling.well as what we expected.5-0 raffles won.as for our doubles match,21-2 and 21-3.
even though we have expected all these,i still feel sad.today's match make me realize a lot of things and see things clearer in a different point of view too.
a smile is what you deserve after fighting for it.
teardrops are for the guilt and regrets you feel for not putting in enough efforts.
a frown is when you work hard for it and people don't appreciate it.
happiness and joy are what you share with your friends and team-mates after working hard together.
cheerings are the best present you can give to your friends and team-mates so as to keep them going.
at times,in our lives,we just need someone to be there to give us supports and encouragements.remember?we are a team.
a team is a group of people who work together towards the same goal,regardless of the differences between us,and keep encouraging each other.
nothing can break a team apart,but if by its own people,it can.
even though we have lost 2matches.let's work hard for the last match.
GO!!! PJ GIRLS SHUTTLERS!!!
well let's leave that aside.someone has brighten up my day by telling me that WE ARE GOING TO THE ZOO!!! yeah.i am going to the zoo.
got to stop here now.anyway i need to thanks several people today.they really keep me going and cheer me up when i am down.
(to minshan: thanks for sponsoring me with so much food and keep me awake in those boring lessons and lectures.)
(to charlene and leah: thanks for keeping me entertained by drawing so many pictures in my lecture notes and always be there for me.as i always say,life will no longer be the same without you two crazy bums. ^.^)
(goal for the day: do my homework,start preparing for mid year exam and CHEER UP.)
today had started off with econ test.bad bad bad.i think i misinterpreted the question.what's the domestic economy?singapore?china?or America?i think i am going to flunk this test.most probably i will just get 7/25?it's just so bad.
next,math lecture.i just can't understand what the lecturer is talking about.binomial distribution?poisson distribution?normal distribution?can anyone just be kind and tell me what is the difference between all these three?
i am dying.can't catch up with all these anymore.and i finally realized something.homeworks are not meant to be left to the next day.because we have homeworks everyday and they will just piled up continuously.and it's just impossible to finish all in one day.so let's take a step at a time and try to finish it slowly.
time is no longer at my side.
just receive my mid year exam schedule today.the sad thing:exams are starting soon.i got to get myself started and this time,no last minute work is allowed.
gp: 23rd may 2008
gsc: 30th may 2008
econ P1 and P2: 24th june 2008
chem P3: 25th june 2008
math P1: 26th june 2008
chem P1 and P2: 30th june 2008
math P2: 1st july 2008
the good thing is that exams only start after the june holiday.which means i have more time to study?and something to look forward to it.I HAVE NO SCHOOL ON THE 2ND JULY AND ALL THE WAY TO 7TH JULY!!! yeah.shopping shopping and more shopping.
school work aside.as for now,badminton first.we played against raffles today and i played the first doubles with yanling.well as what we expected.5-0 raffles won.as for our doubles match,21-2 and 21-3.
even though we have expected all these,i still feel sad.today's match make me realize a lot of things and see things clearer in a different point of view too.
a smile is what you deserve after fighting for it.
teardrops are for the guilt and regrets you feel for not putting in enough efforts.
a frown is when you work hard for it and people don't appreciate it.
happiness and joy are what you share with your friends and team-mates after working hard together.
cheerings are the best present you can give to your friends and team-mates so as to keep them going.
at times,in our lives,we just need someone to be there to give us supports and encouragements.remember?we are a team.
a team is a group of people who work together towards the same goal,regardless of the differences between us,and keep encouraging each other.
nothing can break a team apart,but if by its own people,it can.
even though we have lost 2matches.let's work hard for the last match.
GO!!! PJ GIRLS SHUTTLERS!!!
well let's leave that aside.someone has brighten up my day by telling me that WE ARE GOING TO THE ZOO!!! yeah.i am going to the zoo.
got to stop here now.anyway i need to thanks several people today.they really keep me going and cheer me up when i am down.
(to minshan: thanks for sponsoring me with so much food and keep me awake in those boring lessons and lectures.)
(to charlene and leah: thanks for keeping me entertained by drawing so many pictures in my lecture notes and always be there for me.as i always say,life will no longer be the same without you two crazy bums. ^.^)
(goal for the day: do my homework,start preparing for mid year exam and CHEER UP.)
when we are together,
5:52 PM.
5:52 PM.
